from my heart

This is the area where I will be placing lots and lots of letters to you.  You know how bad I am at mailing stuff on time, but I hope that with this, I will be able to get letters to you as soon as I write them and be able to put things up for you --- ON TIME --- just like you want!

I hope they can stay here forever so you will always have them to look back on.  And don't worry, I will still send you hand-written letters and cards too!  =)

My One Love,

I thought for sure that we would be together by this birthday, but sadly, it is not happening again. As much as I wish I could go and hold you in my arms, we find ourselves once again having to spend another birthday apart. I hope it doesn't bum you out because I can just imagine how much more we are going to appreciate time together!

I know I am always so optimistic and you say we are so opposite, but I see the amazing woman you are inside. With every passing year, you mature so much... sometimes too much! Like when you are always saying you're in pain and falling apart? LOL.

But seriously, I hope you stop thinking that you are falling apart. You are a young, healthy girl with so much life ahead! I can't wait to share it with you daily! Every day I think what an amazing gift God gave when He let me meet you. I hope you make today all about yourself and take some time to pamper yourself at least a little. I love you... now and forever.

- Your Honey Bear

My Love,

This is the first letter I will put up here, so there is some pressure for it to be good.  So much pressure that perhaps I won't put it up, lol...

Okay, I will.  What I really want to say to you is something that is so much more than I can express.  We have been together for exactly one year now and it still seems like we are just getting started.  The year flew by (so to speak, because it was miserable being away from you this whole time) and it seems like I am just starting to get to know you.  I already know so much more about you than others, but every day you surprise me and I learn something new about you.  It is amazing and I am so excited to  learn more and more about you as the years pass and we start a family together.

I am so blessed that you took my offer to "give us a try" LOL.  When I look back on how I approached you and how slow I was, there must have been something more you saw in me to make you look my way twice.

You truly are beautiful in every way.  There is no way for me to describe your beauty other than it takes my breath away.  You are not just skin deep; your passions, your dreams, your quirks... Everything about you makes you more than I ever imagined for myself.

I know you and I will continue through the years and I pray that I will always be someone who can help you achieve your dreams and goals and never put yours aside to accomplish my own.  You are so special and I promise that I will treat you that way for the rest of our lives.

That's why this is up here for all to see.  I love you... now and forever.

- Your Honey Bear

My Baby Doll,

I know that it has been a long time since I wrote something on here and I am so sorry for having been so busy.  I know it has been so hard on you.  It has been hard on me too, but I know it has been harder on you.

It seems like everything is a balancing act.  The harder I tried at school, the more I neglected you; and likewise, the more attention I paid to you, the worse my grades became in school.  Which ended up this semester netting me an A, three B's and a slightly upset girlfriend.  Neither one is acceptable enough, so I'll keep striving and working to make it better.

I am so grateful and blessed that you are so understanding of this time that I am stuck in school.  I have no other way of expressing how everything I do, I do for you.  The brief moments we spend together are nowhere near enough to let you know how I feel and try to explain how my life is going, and they don't help me understand yours either.

But through it all, I know that you understand.  You may complain and get mad at me when I fail you, but I know you understand.  The reason I know is because we are still together.  You haven't called it quits and have been so patient and for that I love you even more.  God let us find each other for several reasons and I thank Him constantly for this.  But until we can finally be together forever, I hope we can make the best of each and every moment we have together and learn to cherish them for the rest of our lives.

You are always in my heart and once again in case you don't know it - I love you... now and forever.

- Your Honey Bear

Honey Lamb,

I know it is another birthday away from each other, and I can't sugar coat it.  It sucks.  I want to hold you more than ever.  Never before has a month seemed so far.  I long for your embrace and to just sit near you.  These are things most people take for granted, but I never can with you.  We just never get that chance so every moment is precious.

I want to make sure you know that you are loved now more than ever.  One more year under your belt, and let me tell you, it doesn't show.  You grow more beautiful by the day and I can't wait until the day I can finally call you my wife.  Have a great birthday week, my love.  I pray that God blesses you and keeps you safe and comforted when I am not there.  I love you... now and forever.

- Your Honey Bear